my vision is so NEBulous

Sometimes I have a lot of free time here in Phnom Penh so I do stuff like eat low-grade beef and view Ben's facebook page. I got on the other day and the first thing I saw on his wall was the list of his "Top 10 Stalkers" and I was #4. I was angry at myself for a couple reasons: (1) I should never be on that list because I look like a total weenie when everybody finds out that Ben's 24 year old doppelganger brother has nothing to do with his time but relive his teenage years vicariously through his little brother's countless photos of high school parties with hot high school girls and wall posts by Bri Hennessy loaded with words that have the last letter repeated so many timessssssss! and (2) If I'm gonna be on that list, I should be higher than Kim ":^)" Houk.

So, as I sit here in a Cambodian cafe, 8 000 miles away from home, watching Cartoon Network and a little boy with no diaper soil himself on the couch next to me, I understand that I may just need to facebook the facts and realize that Neb just might be living up to all the hype. And even though I get a little jealous every time I see "your SO FUNNY Ben!" or "Ben = best boyfriend!" or "Hey Ben, thanks for coming to my #$@&$ party! You're the $@!#$%* BEST!", Ben will always be my favorite Lou Ferrigno look-alike, and even after he takes his talents to Rexburg I'll still be his #4 fannnnnnnn!